I started thinking and writing about judgement a few months ago. When I first came up with the idea of this blog, I wanted the main theme to be “letting shit go.” I wanted to focus on all the emotional baggage, social concepts, limiting beliefs, cultural constructions, false beliefs – that hold us back from our true selves. I wanted to write about my own process of letting all this stuff go and work through it, because truthfully, after almost 34 years revolving around the sun, I am just now starting to awaken to all the bull shit we are fed. I am just now starting to see it for what it is. BUT… it has taken a lot of self awareness and inner work to get to where I am, and I am still working on it daily.
When I first started to think about judgement and sit with it, I thought this was a piece of me I wanted to “let go.” I wanted to STOP judging people. I thought if I could stop judging others, I could reduce my ego, become more caring, more empathetic and all those gushy things we strive for. The funny thing about this, is that about 2 years ago I probably would have described myself as NON JUDGEMENTAL—I wore it as a badge of honor – It was a symbol of how GOOD I was— I now realize my ego came up with that horse shit – The same way my ego tunes in when I judge a person or situation in order to somehow ‘elevate’ my self. To make myself feel better in that moment.
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